I remember reading somewhere that one of the big causes of depression is feeling like you can’t change anything in your life. You feel stuck, and you feel like there’s nothing you can do to get out of that situation. Everything spirals downward because you feel helpless and trapped.
Up until 3 weeks ago, I had many of those feelings.
I hated my new job. A lot.
I would dive into all the reasons but I should be a professional and not put all that out on the internet, ya know?
Anyway, I was miserable after approximately 1 week into the new job. As someone who hasn’t had many new jobs in my life, I wasn’t sure if my unhappiness was just because I was unfamiliar with the work, the company, the client, my coworkers, etc? I mean, I understand that every time you get a new job there is a learning curve, and you go from knowing everything and everyone at your previous job to being brand new at the new job. I had been in the same office for 6 years (with a 2 year stint of self-employment in the middle) and was very comfortable with everything at that job. So it would make sense that I'd be feeling very uncomfortable and unfamiliar in a brand new place.
I stuck it out hoping that things would get better. They didn’t.
After multiple evenings where I came home from work crying (!!!! yes really, I realize this sounds ridiculous and yes I'm almost 29 years old and probably should be an adult and not let work get to me this much but this was sooooooo not a healthy place for me) and venting to Mike and my Mom, the consensus was that I needed to get a new job.
I fought it for awhile, because I thought no one would hire me when I’d only been at my past job for a month (and also because I had JUST FINISHED applying and interviewing for jobs… ugh did not want to start that process up again). But Mike is a genius and convinced me to start applying, so I followed his advice and started throwing out my resume. Also I finally realized that I was actually exhibiting many symptoms of depression and that scared me.
Amazingly- the most perfect job opportunity liked my resume, reached out to me, and I interviewed and got the job! WAHOO!!
(I later discovered that the hiring manager knows my old boss - the one from 2 jobs ago - and he gave me a great referral which helped me get hired. haha so there were outside factors... BUT STILL. It was glorious.)
I immediately felt like the weight of the world had lifted. The soul crushing feeling of being in a situation for 40+ hours a week that I hated evaporated. I successfully DID something to fix my situation!! I changed my life!!!!!
So that’s what I want to remind you of today. EVERYTHING IS CHANGEABLE. Life is too damn short to do something you don’t like doing. Stop making excuses for why you’re not doing what you want to do (like I said, I made excuses that “oh they won’t want to hire me because I’ve only been at my company for a month” but obviously that was wrong!!) and just GO FOR IT. Sure it might mean you need to do some work applying for jobs, but isn't a little bit of effort better than HATING life??!
I don’t want anyone to ever feel as sad and miserable as I did for the past 2 months. It is so not worth it. You deserve a happy life.
The best part of this story is that I started my new job almost 3 weeks ago and I am so so so so so happy. I love it so far and have not had ANY feelings similar to the previous job.
Thank you to Mike and my mom talking sense into me and giving me the advice to go for a new job :)